Looking back I have no regrets, looking forward...life has just begun.
2009 was a rough year. It started out with a bang, my precious baby boy was born in March and showed me a whole new meaning to what love really is. Shortly after I was left alone by the one person who was never suppose to leave me, much less a 5 week old baby. We were his family, his wife and son and we were left to embark on this new journey alone. I have always been quite the independent female so this typically would have never bothered me. However, I had something much bigger to worry about now. My son, a precious baby that I was really not suppose to have according to many doctors and specialist. He was perfect in every way and I just didn't understand how anyone could walk away from him. In this quite time I was left to figure out this new adventure on my own I had a lot of time to think about what exactly life was all about and what I wanted out of it. Not just for me but for this amazing gift from God. Months drug on and I realized how strong I really was. I decided then, November, that I was not going to hurt, suffer, or be infused with this anger any longer. I then filed for divorce from a man that was so different from the man I married and fell in love with just 2 short years ago. It was quite possibly the hardest decision I have ever had to make and one that in no way will I ever regret. I have been rejuvenated and filled with life again. I can breathe, I am happy, I am LIVING!!
2010 is a new year. A time for new life, new love, new ME. I know this year holds so many wonderful things for me and Jacob. I know we will be blessed beyond belief. We are healthy, happy, loved by many, and that is all we need. I am so very grateful for all the new people in our lives and all the many new journeys we will embark on this year. I look forward to all the wonderful things, place and people that will come to us this year. This is our year!
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