Where did the time go? Is Christmas really 2 days away? Is my baby really turning 2 in 3 months? Do I really move into my first house in 7 days? Has Travis really been gone now for 8 months? .....Time doesn't stop for life, so live it.
Christmas shopping done, and everything wrapped! Tonight Jay and I will attempt to put together Jacob's riding John Deer Tractor from Santa. This could get interesting. Last minute gift wrapping and stocking stuffing, bow ties and cross painting..which reminds me! Shoot...I still have two more presents to make! We have already had two of the six Christmas', Emma came to visit us and have her Christmas with Jacob this last weekend & we had Christmas at Papa & Koko's on Sunday. Tomorrow we will have our traditional Christmas Eve festivities at Uncle Tim's with Nanny then back home to open our matching Christmas Pj's from Santa! We will all get tucked in and wait for Jacob to awake for Santa! Oh this is going to be fun...
This is our first holiday season without Travis and so far we have all handled it quite well. I can't make myself go back to the cemetery to spend time with him right now, seeing his grave marker with a wreath on it may just send me into a realm of unstableness all over again, and I am not ready for that right now. I am not having nightmares anymore but my brother is and he is really struggling with it all. I think being home for the holidays for the first time since Travis has been gone has been a reality for Jeff. He says that he sees Travis in his dreams and talks to him in his sleep. His bunk mates have had to wake him several times from screaming out to Travis "I will save you...I am here". Breaks my heart, he thinks there is something he could have done to save Travis, but the hard reality is there is nothing any of us could have done. It was just God's plan. None of us will ever understand why?! January will mark the 8th month anniversary of his accident, I can't believe it, I can still remember every detail about that day.....Travis, I hope you are having the best Christmas celebration you have ever had with our good Lord, thank him for taking care of your family and friends and giving us all the strength to continue on. Give Jacob Lugo a squeeze for all of us too! We miss you & love you!
I am really looking forward to 2011 and it can't get here fast enough! I am DONE with 2010! What a rough year and I don't really plan to have another one like ..EVER! I started 2010 with hopes of a great year and a new found glory, well God had other plans for me this year. Plans of finding out just how strong I am and am not and how I can handle the many curve balls he has decided to pitch me. Hopefully 2011 will be full of joy and happiness, peace and tranquility, not pain and suffering and mourning of loved ones. Come on 2011....new life, new journey, new love, new hopes, new faith, new car, new house, new..new...new...
The only downside to ringing in another new year...my baby is officially a toddler. He will be 2, yes 2, in just 3 months..HOLY COW! When did that happen? Terrible twos here we come! I am looking forward to planning his birthday party again this year and I have big plans up my sleeves! He has become so vocal and such a little smarty pants. I am so glad he is a quick learner, although at times, that really gets us in trouble. Careful what you say, he will repeat it. He has learned sign language at school and it is by far the cutest thing I have ever seen. If we could keep him healthy and well this new year that would be fantastic!
My brother is home for the holidays and what a joy that has been, he is a mess! I am so proud of him, but boy is he the same brat he left here as. Just kidding! It didn't take him too long to get back into his routine of old habits, and he is enjoying his leave time quite well. I can't believe this is his first time home in 6 months. He graduates Army Medic School on February 3rd, another graduation that will be hard to sit through but will make me so proud to be his sister! He will then be stationed at Ft. Polk in LA. He is not looking forward to that base but said that he will probably only be there a few weeks before deploying to Afghan for 15 months. BAHUMBUG! I really don't know if I can handle my brother leaving right now and I know my mother can't take him being gone for 15 months....prayers start now.
On a much HAPPIER note, in exactly one week from today we move into our new house! I can not believe that in one week I will be a first time home buyer and own my very first house. I have worked so hard for all the things that are finally happening for me. I have been through so much in the last few years and I am finally being rewarded! I can not wait for them to hand me the keys to unlock the door to my new house! God is sooo good!
Happy Holidays to you and yours!
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