Truth is: I miss you, friends.

Friendships have been heavy on my heart since late last year.

I will be the first to admit that I sucked at them last year, and it was made clear to me through a great friend that I did. I cannot say I am sorry enough but I am trying with every fiber in my being to be the friend that I have always been.

What is heavy on my heart is that my attempts seem to fall on deaf ears. I have tried to let it go and move on but to no avail. You can't just let go of great friends like that, or at least I can't.

I read a Facebook post last week that said something along the lines of swallowing our pride and telling those friends that we love them and we miss them. Truth is, I do. I miss all my friends and I love them all dearly.

Some live so far away, some have grown in a different direction, and some are as wrapped up in life as I always seem to be. Either way I do miss them.

I always thought that when I got married and had children that I wouldn't necessarily be concerned with how many friends I had or how often I seen them or if we got together often. I knew there would come a point that we would all be wives and mothers and that getting together as often as we use to would not be as easy. Another truth, even when life is messy you still need your friends.

Girlfriends seem to know what to say, when to say it, and when you need them the most. Or at least all of mine always did. I have those kind of girlfriends that even after months of not talking we can usually pick up where we left off, problem is I haven't seen some of them in so long I forgot where we left off. No one to blame, everyone is just growing, and everyone is just busy. Another truth, I hate that life is so busy you can't just sit and visit with those you cherish, often. There is always somewhere to be or something to do. I hate the empty feeling after loosing touch with great friends.

I came across this today, and it hit close to my heart.

 

 

 

Truth is, I miss my very best friend.

 

Truth is, I am not the greatest friend.

 

Truth is, I still miss you, and I will always love you.

 

Another truth. I will continue to pray that God will restore friendships. That he will mend the broken hearted and that friendships will flourish again. I will pray for new friendships to continue to grow and never get stale. I will pray that those girlfriends of mine will come to know how much I love them and how much I miss them.

 

I miss you, friends.