Life is full of firsts and lasts. There is a first time for everything, a first kiss, a first date, a first love, a first baby, a first dream....there is only one life. I chose to live my life for others for so long, this is the first time I am living for me. In doing so, I am living for others but keeping close sight of myself. The life I live is full of first and lasts...I just hope there more firsts than lasts. I keep holding on to first memories of Jay and I and I can't tell you how incredibly special they are. Even though, Jay is not the first man I will marry or the first man I will have a baby with...it will be a first with him and a last forever. I trust in God's plan and the miracles He is working in our life. I have never trusted someone with my whole life like I trust him, I have never loved someone besides my son with every ounce of my being, I have never been so satisfied by someones love, and I have never been so happy. These are all firsts...and lasts. My heart is full, my smile hasn't faded, and my love and faith continue to grow daily. I have met my match....this is my first and this is my last.
Day 55..Selfishness...
"Dear Lord, please mold me into the unselfish being of love and faith. Give me the strength and courage to put down any walls left standing and to allow myself to be what he needs me to be and what I should be as a partner of love. In your name I pray...AMEN"
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