The Color Yellow.....

.....it was your favorite color. Every time I see something yellow, I am reminded of you.

Another piece of my heart in heaven.

On June 30th I received a call that brought me to my knees. As I raced down the freeway to the emergency room, my heart raced, my eyes teared, and my words became shaky, much like the voice on the other end of the line during that dreaded phone call. That voice belonged to my heartbroken mother who had just lost her cousin best friend. As I ran through the doors of the emergency room I was haulted by the sight of my family with tear stained cheeks. It was too late.

I didn't get to tell you goodbye. I didn't get to tell you how much you really meant to me. I didn't get to tell you thank you for holding my mom together while my brother was deployed. Thank you for making my mom smile and laugh like only you could. Thank you for your silly text during the day that were sure to bring us laughing out loud in a quite office. Thank you for the fun we had during Tanner's senior photo shoot, I'll never forget that. Thank you for traveling to Lubbock to celebrate my 21st birthday with me, even if you were terrified to fly. Thank you for trying to embarrass me with your Lone Star card and opening a tab at my favorite bar in college. Thank you for the memories.

My drives through Kaufman, TX are a little more somber than usual. I may not have always stopped at your house, but I knew you were there.  Now you are gone.

When I would pass "the center" I would laugh and think about you, now I have to fight back tears.

Many have gotten tattoos in your honor over the last 2 weeks, sang "Cole Miners Daughter" on karaoke, donated to "the center" in your honor, and celebrated your loud, live life to the fullest, way of living. While we are all fighting through the pain of such a sudden loss, we thrive knowing we will see you again. We stand strong for your sweet husband and three precious boys.

The love you and Jason shared was real, true, love. Something to be envied by those who have never felt a love so true. Your boys are reminded daily of how much love you had for them, and how no matter how hard life got, you loved them with all that you had.

I still laugh at your busted toe and how from then on Travis would call you "Toe". And how you would yell at Jeff every time he would call you "Big Meat". You had the best nicknames, ever.

I hope you are raising all kinds up there, I am sure God wouldn't expect anything less.

I miss you laugh. I miss your silliness. I miss you. Until I see you again, fly high love!

Charlotte Kay Guy - January 30, 1973 - June 30, 2012