July-I am tired.

I am so ready for July to go away.

This has been one very, very, hard month on us. This year has been a very hard year on us.

I am tired. I mean utterly exhausted. I am tired of loosing family members & pets that are like family members. I am tried of being in emergency rooms. I am tired of my baby being sick. July, I am tired of you.

Let me share with you what all has happened this month.

It all started June 27th when Jacob first started getting sick, again. Then, June 30th my incredible cousin passes away from an unknown brain aneurysm. While at her memorial my grandmother falls over Jacob and his cousin Brayden putting her in the emergency room with a concussion, fractured foot, and sprained wrist. Then my brother and sister-in-law were in a car accident on the way back home from the funeral. All of this in a week time frame. Every single day of that week was a disaster.

I got one week of somewhat rest, still doting a sick child.

Then it starts again. Saturday, Jacob takes another trip the emergency room, luckily released that night. Monday back to the pediatrician and then off to the pulmonolgist for 5 hours. Then Wednesday back to the emergency room where we were admitted for 3 days. Days of testing, poking, prodding, etc. and then we were finally back home.

All of this after loosing both of our family dogs.

Seriously, we live in a constant circus. I am tired of the circus. Can't we just be "normal"? Do we even know what normal is? July-I am tired of you.

Lord, please let August bring some laughter, some joy, some answers, some relaxation! Please!

I am so very grateful that we don't have it any worse than this because I know there are others suffering far more than we are! I would just like the roller coaster to slow down so that we can enjoy this life, even if it is a circus.