Friday.

Friday was the last day my heart would hurt this hurt.

It was the last day I would wake, dress, leave my child for 9 hours, and walk through the doors of a place I never fit in. It was the last day I had to worry about what I did, what I said, or who was watching me in this place. It was the last day I would walk into a kitchen or conference room full of other women, only to be ignored. My time was up in this place of discomfort. I no longer had to carry a target on my back. Friday was the last day I would shed tears over this place, these tears were of relief.

Friday was the last time I had to hear the words "our sympathy card has ran out" on replay as I entered those glass doors. Since July, my heart had been heavy, my cheeks had tear stains daily, and my drive to work seemed longer and more painful. Since July, I felt like I would never be happy there again. In July words were spoken to me that hurt my heart and made me loose respect for those around me. In July my prayers begin.

I begin to ask God to open doors for me that only He could. I asked Him to relieve me of this discomfort, this pain, this anger. I asked Him to show me what my destiny was. I asked Him to place me right where I needed to be to bring Glory to him. It was not in this place.

Friday was my last day. Not by my choice, not by choice of action no matter what others choose to believe, but by God's will. I believe that He knew my pain, He knew my struggles, and He created a way for me to move from this discomfort, even when I least expected it. He has big plans for me, Jeremiah 29:11 says so!

Now, as I wake every morning, have breakfast with my child and enjoy the giggles that come from the playroom as he plays and creates memories of his childhood, I pray that God opens even more doors for me to enjoy moments just like this. It's these moments that I wish I could freeze in time. I pray that God places me in the right location at the right time and that I can bring him all the Glory.

Since Friday I have learned a couple of important things.

I have an amazing support group around me that I will forever be grateful for. The friends and family that immediately jumped into prayer and action on Friday, I can never repay you.

My God is so very good. He created new opportunities for my photography business and I give all the glory to Him. I am going to be very busy this year creating and capturing very special memories for some very special families. What a blessing He has created.

I know that God creates situations like this for a reason and I will not question that reason. I will rejoice and be glad in it for God never closes one door without opening another.

Friday, I walked away from a place to never return. I walked away with enough to provide for my share of my families needs for the next 3 months, but I know what I cannot provide, My God will!

I have a whole lot of faith.