I have come to really hate 4:30am. I have found arms that I run to when I need a good cry, need a good person to pray with, need someone to be there when my day just really sucks, or when Jacob needs someone other than me to snuggle with at night. I have grown quite fond of these arms and falling asleep inside them is..simply euphoric. I have become so fond of it that in fact, when these arms are not there at night, I toss and turn and wiggle around in bed like an anxious child on Christmas Eve. It sucks! That's where my hatred for 4:30am comes in. This is when the alarm clock sounds and these arms must untangle themselves from my peaceful state of euphoria to exist among the working class. I really dislike it and for some reason this morning was harder than others. I woke up long enough to lock the door and wait on the "I made it to work" text and then I was back to the pillow.
I later woke to Jacob stabbing me in the eye with the hair clip that was in my hair at one point and my head feeling as though someone punted a football from it. After rolling out of bed and watching my munchkin devour a whole bag of cinnamon donuts and splash around in the tub, I decided to get dressed. While doing so I lost Jacob. I quickly found him dancing around in Jay's closet with a bottle of supplements and giggling as if it was the funniest thing he'd ever done. What a morning, great way to start the day. Good thing there is a Smoothie King on the way to the golf course...
I absolutely love going to the golf course (Bridlewood of course!) on my way out of town. As soon as we pull up Jacob points at the window "ay!, ay!" He knows his "ay" is out there waiting to take him on a ride in his cart! My heart melts when I roll down the window and Jacob lights up seeing Jay! Jay immediately gets him out of his car seat and they go for a cruise on the gator! I love to watch my boys play and Jacob's grin covers his tiny face from ear to ear! It is indescribable. The worst part is leaving the golf course. Jacob cries until we get back on the highway and he falls asleep it makes me absolutely miserable. He cries more when Jay leaves than he does for me, but I am so very thankful that he loves him the way he does.
We have heard from Jeff both nights that he has been away and he seems to be having a blast! He got his uniforms today and was so excited. "I have three pair of boots and I have no idea which ones I am suppose to wear?!" He said he had met a best new pal and an Italian buddy. The Italian buddy nicknamed him "Timon"...we still aren't sure why?! He is doing really well, for now, the hard stuff hasn't started yet.
I got Jacob enrolled in his new school for August, I love this place! It is a great facility and the curriculum is amazing! Jacob is so smart and I am excited to see what all he learns this year! Filling out the paperwork was a bit difficult. It kept asking for all this information about "dad"...it was really hard for me to put "deceased" when it asked for the fathers information and if both parents were still living. I guess it made it a bit more real that Travis would never be there to pick Jacob up from school. It also made it more real that I am it, I am the one that they will call when Jacob is sick, hurt, sad, or just needs someone. Makes me even more grateful for the special people in our lives. I know my parents and grandmothers will be there in the drop of a hat to pick him up if I can not be there. But I also have Jay who has already said that during the winter when times at work are slow he wants to go pick up Jacob and spend the day with him, that just makes my heart so happy. Jacob would LOVE that! I also know that Jay would be there if I needed him to in case Jacob was sick and I couldn't get there and neither could anyone else. He would walk on water and through fire for us, I am very lucky!
On another note, I have decided that it is finally time to get this baby body outta doge and get the old cheer body back...good luck with all that sister! No, I can and will do this!!! Jay bought the P90X system and we are going to do it together and I can't wait. I am really, really looking forward to the results!!
My heart keeps beating faster and faster, filling with more love and happiness each day. I have found the one my soul confides in and the beat goes on.....
No comments:
Post a Comment