Being an Inspiration

My hope when I started this blog was to touch hearts. Was to share how messy life really is. Was to show how present God really is. It was not to become a wealthy blogger of any sorts, nor was it to become an inspiration. Although both would be grand, that is not the purpose, nor the intent.

I love to hear from people who find great joy in reading my blogs. I REALLY love to hear from readers who find my stories inspiring. I did not set out to become on inspiration.

I have been through a lot. I talk about all that I have been through freely. I don't use it as a crutch and I don't expect sympathy from anyone. I simply like to write about it and if you like to read it, and take something positive away from it, that makes me smile.

I share my stories for this reason alone: if I can help one person through something I have been through, I have accomplished my goal through this blog.

Recently I shared a story of loosing a friend. A very dear friend, or I thought, because she saw the things I posted as "attention seeking". After reading this post, another friend sent me this sweet message:

 

 

"Girl, I seriously LOVE your blog!!! I think the things you share are inspirational to others, and I was saddened to read your last post. I had the same ting happen to me the weekend before my wedding, except it was a group of texts not supposed to be sent to me, and needless to say, I lost a bridesmaid exactly 4 days before my wedding!!

But, I wanted to just say that I appreciate your posts. I too feel like the world comes crashing down at times, and reading your posts and how you deal with the cards you are dealt and keep a positive outlook keep people smiling!!! Don't worry about those negative people who don't like to see those things, bc I read every blog you post and enjoy them all!!

Anyways, just wanted to tell you that!! : )"

 

 

I appreciate her. I appreciate her kind words. I am glad that she looks at my posts and remembers how you can survive chaos with a smile on your face. That gives me great peace in my heart.

 

I may not be leading the next inspirational speaking engagement but I like to think that I have handled a lot, and done it all with grace. I give all the Glory to God, because without Him I would not be nearly as capable of sharing my stories. I am a lot stronger in these posts than I probably am physically/emotionally in all reality. But, that is nor hear nor there.

 

I am human and I breakdown, hard.

 

I am reminded now of a song from church last Sunday, "I am broken inside. I give you my life. I need you. My flesh my fail, but my God never will."  Can I get an AMEN?!

 

Life is messy folks. It is hard. Sometimes harder than we ever imagined. Our plans will fail, right along with our flesh. But I do know, that whether I become some grand inspiration for women across the globe or not, I will have given my whole heart to everything that I have done. I will have lived the life God gave me. I will have shared without regard everything in my life in hopes to touch a heart. And I have done it all through the faith in God's grace.

 

 

I hope to touch many more hearts and to share stories that hit home to many people. My blog is not mindless, it has meaning. I like that. I hope you do, too.